Today is not like yesterday.

Today I woke up but didn’t energetically push away the sheets and didn’t try to dance silly like Cameron Diaz did in that scene from Charlie’s angels. I just woke up, and remained still, covered under the sheets, heck I even covered my head hoping “today” forgets about me.

Today I didn’t scroll through my whatsapp to answer my friends with a good morning, I didn’t want to know if they slept well, got stuck in traffic, finished that series or sexted that boy or girl they like.

Today I didn’t make my coffee with passion, and didn’t sip it like one would sip on the lips of his eternal love. I didn’t gaze into the mirror to admire my fitness progress or blame my late night cravings and sure as hell didn’t drink my vitamin C nor did I take my magical or useless probiotic pill.

Today I don’t need vitamin C, I just want to sleep. I don’t want to do my favorite leg workout or wait in line at my favorite bank ( my only bank really) or have my apple with a cup of cappuccino.

Today I don’t want to hear podcasts about self love and embracing one’s body and being kind and gentle to one’s self. I don’t want to hear that it will all be ok.

I know it will,

Just not today..